I am a BAD Person

So, Jason came over tonight. He was dropping off 2 shelves and also bringing me the document that states that he will pay me (some) of the money he owes me.

Now, before I tell you why I am a bad person - I have to say that I didn't sign the document. It was drawn up by Jason's Aunt's boyfriend - who is a lawyer. It is in legal talk and I don't really trust that there isn't some crazy loop hole. I want to read it over for awhile first. Does anyone know a lawyer that would read it for free and give advice?

Now, on with the important topic:

Here is why I am a bad person: Jason got dumped. ... and I am kinda smiling inside. I don't think he has ever been dumped before and I can tell he didn't expect it at all. She went back to her ex. Now, a little part of me feels bad for the guy. You gotta feel for someone that gets dumped. ... I didn't know this until AFTER I talked about how I have "met" a few guys...lol. He always mocked online dating but actually began checking it out himself.

I am pretty ashamed with myself that I am taking such joy in it. It isn't nice of me. I shouldn't be thinking "see - you are NOT king of the world like you think you are". I shouldn't be thinking, "HA - you were dating her almost immediately after we broke up and joked that I couldn't find a guy that wasn't a loser...at least I haven't been dumped for an alcoholic". Again, that is not nice. I am a bad person for feeling like this. I don't mean harm on him and he wasn't ALWAYS a bad guy to me - but a part of me is happy.

I am sure everyone will say it is a natural feeling to be (at least a little) happy - but I don't want to be happy that someone else was hurt. I don't like it when people hurt. So, officially I feel bad for the dude. I had my moment and now I'm not going to dwell on it. Squashed.